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PART 1
The envelope arrived on a Tuesday morning in October, slipped beneath my apartment door while I was asleep. My name was written on cream-colored paper in handwriting I did not recognize, but the return address made my stomach tighten: Riverside Memorial Hospital. Inside was a short note that shattered the careful distance I had built from my past. “Mr. Davidson, your ex-wife Rebecca listed you as her emergency contact. She has been admitted and is asking for you.”
The drive to the hospital felt like moving backward through time. Every mile brought back memories I had tried to bury: Rebecca laughing on our first date, the way she used to wake me with coffee and terrible singing, and the silence that eventually settled over our home like dust on furniture no one touched anymore.
I found her in the cardiac unit, sitting near the window in a hospital gown that made her look smaller than I remembered. Her dark hair, once carefully styled, hung loose around her shoulders. The confidence that had drawn me to her seven years earlier seemed gone, replaced by someone fragile, tired, and uncertain.
Her voice carried both surprise and relief.
“The hospital contacted me,” I said. “They told me you were asking for me.”
“I didn’t know who else to put down as an emergency contact,” she said. “My parents are gone, my sister lives across the country… I guess old habits stay longer than we expect.”
“What happened?” I asked, finally taking a few steps toward her bed.
“My heart stopped, David. I had a medical crisis at work. The doctors think it was connected to the way I’d been using my prescriptions.”
The words hung between us. I stared at her, trying to understand what she was telling me.
Rebecca looked out the window instead of at me.
“Different medications. Too many. The doctors are still sorting out everything.”
She told me about anxiety that had started in college and had grown worse over time. She told me about panic attacks at work, nights without sleep, and mornings when her mind was already exhausted before the day even began. She told me how she had first sought help, then slowly began depending too much on medication when fear became louder than reason.
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