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She arrived carrying Thai takeout, two legal pads, and the same expression she usually saved for natural disasters and terrible haircuts.
“You should have called me the second you found out,” she said.
“I needed to think.”
“I did that internally.”
Caroline stepped back and studied my face. “Are you okay?”
“No. But I’m clear.”
Over dinner, I told her everything from the beginning. The email. The reservation. The rose petals. Vanessa’s messages. The transfer. The call from Dubai. Carter begging in the hotel lobby. Vanessa leaving him when the money vanished.
When I finished, she said, “I hope he slept under fluorescent lights next to a vending machine.”
I laughed for the first real time in a week.
Not graceful tears. Not quiet cinematic tears. Ugly, exhausted, humiliating sobs that folded me over the kitchen island. Caroline came around the counter and held me while my whole body shook. I cried for fifteen years. I cried for the children we never had because Carter always said next year. I cried for my father, who had trusted him. I cried for the version of myself who had mistaken patience for love.
When the crying finally stopped, Caroline handed me a napkin and said, “Now we bury him.”
Bank accounts. Insurance. Utilities. Business documents. Mutual friends who needed to hear the truth before Carter rewrote it. His mother, unfortunately. My employer, in case he tried anything foolish. Margaret, already handled. A real estate appraiser. A therapist.
Book somewhere beautiful.
I frowned. “What?”
“You need to leave this house for a few days before his ghost gets too loud.”
“I can’t just go on vacation.”
“Why not?”
“My life is falling apart.”
“Exactly. Fall apart somewhere with room service.”
After she left, I sat by myself in the living room. The house was silent. Carter’s absence felt less like emptiness and more like a bruise. Everything reminded me of him: the leather chair he had picked, the whiskey glasses, the ridiculous abstract painting he insisted looked “European.”
I opened my laptop.
I did not search for divorce advice.
I searched for Santorini.
I had wanted to visit Greece since I was nineteen and first saw a photograph of white houses stacked above a blue sea. Carter had always dismissed it.
Too touristy.
Too far.
Too expensive.
Too impractical.
So many things I loved had died beneath the word impractical.
At 11:48 p.m., I booked one week at a cliffside hotel overlooking the Aegean Sea.
Business class.
Private terrace.
Breakfast included.
I paid from my personal account.
Then, only once, I unblocked Carter and sent him a screenshot of the confirmation.
No message.
No explanation.
Just the destination he had denied me for years.
He replied within two minutes.
Are you serious?
I blocked him before the second message could arrive.
PART 5
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