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I had never told him about the kitchen explosion. I had only told him I carried scars from an accident when I was young, and even that confession took weeks. The rest of it lived inside a locked room I had never once opened for him.
Callahan turned slightly toward me. “Because there’s something you don’t know.”
A chill moved through my body. “What are you talking about?”
But then he looked directly toward my voice and slightly beyond it, and I understood. He wasn’t looking at me.
He was staring into darkness.
I sat down heavily on the bed because my legs no longer felt reliable.
I recognized the name immediately. Mike had been our neighbor’s son, the one who blasted loud music through thin apartment walls.
He told me they had been fooling around behind the building, siphoning gas, daring each other, showing off with the careless arrogance teenage boys often carry. Then one bad decision became a spark, and a leak nobody respected became something impossible to stop.
All the boys ran.
Mike’s family moved away not long afterward. Callahan stayed and saw my name in a newspaper days later.
“A girl named Merritt survived with severe scarring,” he said softly, repeating the words he had read all those years ago. “That stayed with me.”
I sat there crying before I even realized tears had started falling. My wedding night had split open into a room crowded with ghosts I never invited inside.
Callahan gave a hollow laugh. “At first, I wasn’t certain it was you. Then you told me your name, and I got scared.”
He confirmed his suspicion through a friend. The woman he loved was the girl from the explosion. He tried to walk away. He couldn’t.
“I kept thinking if I told you too early, you’d leave before I had the chance to love you properly, Merry.”
“You stole my choice,” I whispered.
Callahan lowered his head.
“You let me marry you without telling me what you knew,” I snapped. “What you did.”
“I know.”
That was the unbearable part. He wasn’t hiding behind excuses. He knew exactly how deeply this truth would cut through me, and he still waited until vows and rings tied us together before confessing it.
Part of me wanted to scream at him. Another part still wanted to reach for him, because he was the same man who had called me beautiful five minutes earlier, and the contradiction split me right down the middle.
“I need air,” I whispered.
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