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Callahan offered to sleep in the guest room. I barely heard him. I grabbed my coat and left with tears pouring down my face, a bride walking alone through the freezing night with wedding pins still in her hair and her entire life unraveling beneath lace.
She arrived within ten minutes. One glance at me and she knew something was terribly wrong.
“Part of me wants to hate him,” I admitted after explaining everything. “But another part can’t forget the way he made me feel seen.”
I spent the night on her couch barely sleeping. By morning, I knew one thing clearly: running from truth had already stolen too much from my life. I wasn’t going to let it steal this decision too.
I dressed in old jeans and a sweater borrowed from Lorie’s closet.
“No,” I admitted. “But I’m going anyway.”
I walked to Callahan’s apartment because I needed cold air and time to think. Buddy heard me first, his paws scrambling across the floor before I even reached the top stair. The moment I opened the door, he nearly knocked me over with relief.
“Merry, you came back!”
“How did you know it was me?” I asked.
He stepped forward carefully, one hand reaching slightly ahead of him. He almost misjudged the rug. Before thinking, I reached out and caught his wrist. Callahan went still beneath my touch. Then, gently, he found my face again.
“You’re the most beautiful woman I’ve ever known, Merry.”
Then I caught the faint smell of something burning and looked past him toward the stove.
The omelet in the pan was turning black. I laughed so hard I had to lean against the counter, and Buddy began barking like joy had a sound he recognized. Callahan laughed too then—the first real laugh since the night before.
“The kitchen,” I said through tears and laughter, “belongs to me now.”
That became my first official decision as a married woman.
Buddy stretched out beneath the table like a witness at peace negotiations and wagged his tail every time either of us laughed.
For the first time in years, I no longer feel ashamed of my scars.
I finally understand that what happened to me was never my fault. And the one person who knew the ugliest truth attached to it still looked at me, through nothing but darkness, and found something worth loving.
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