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“No,” Joanna said. “If something is wrong with my baby, you tell me now.”
“Nothing is wrong with him,” he said. “But I think I may know his family.”
For months, family had meant only Joanna. Her hands on her stomach. Her voice in an empty apartment. Her aching body standing through long shifts at the diner because there was no one else.
“Logan,” she said.
Robert closed his eyes.
Joanna’s heart slammed. She had never given the hospital Logan’s last name.
Robert opened his eyes.
The words landed like a confession. Joanna stared at him, too tired to decide whether she had misheard.
“Logan is my son,” Robert said again. “I didn’t know about the pregnancy. I swear I didn’t.”
“He left when I told him,” she said. “He said he needed air. He packed a bag and promised he would call.” Her voice cracked, but she forced herself to keep speaking. “He never did.”
Robert lowered his gaze.
“Where is he?” Joanna demanded. “If he’s your son, where is he?”
“I don’t know.”
“What do you mean, you don’t know?”
“I haven’t seen him in seven months.”
The nurse placed the baby into Joanna’s arms. Instinct overpowered everything. She pulled him close, breathing in his warm newborn scent. Her son quieted almost at once.
“The night he left you,” Robert said, “he came to me.”
Joanna looked up slowly.
“He was terrified. I had never seen him like that. He said he had made a mistake, that he needed to leave, that people were looking for him. I thought he owed money. I thought he had gotten himself into trouble. He had always been impulsive.”
“Did he tell you about me?”
“No. He didn’t mention you. He didn’t mention a baby.” Robert’s face tightened with regret. “If he had—”
Joanna waited.
“I told him to stop running. He became angry and said I had never understood anything about blood.” Robert looked again at the birthmark. “Then he left. Three days later, his car was found abandoned near Blackwater Bridge. No crash. No signs of him. Just the car, his phone, and his wallet.”
Joanna’s breath caught.
“No body?”
“No body. The police believed he staged it and ran. I wanted to believe he was alive.”
For seven months, Joanna had imagined Logan somewhere free, careless, laughing too easily, telling someone new that his past was complicated. That image had hurt, but it had kept her standing. Anger was easier than grief. Now there was a bridge, an abandoned car, and a father who had vanished from more than one life.
Robert pulled a chair closer and sat carefully.
“My wife and I had two sons,” he said. “Logan, and another boy. His name was Elias.”
The name meant nothing to her.
“Elias had a birthmark under his left collarbone, exactly like your son’s. When Elias was five, he disappeared.”
The nurse crossed herself without thinking.
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