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The blonde girl sat beside me quietly.
I laughed through tears.
“I used to joke that he looked like he’d been born in the middle of an argument.”
The memory hit me so hard I had to stop speaking.
“Why didn’t she tell me?” I whispered finally.
“And because she loved you,” another boy added.
“I know she loved me,” I said quietly. “I just didn’t know this.”
But I didn’t go alone.
I called Angie’s friends and asked them to come too.
I opened the door wider.
“She wanted all of you there too, didn’t she?”
The boy with glasses simply nodded.
I watched Angie’s friends throw sticks for the dog she spent her final weeks searching for.
Then quietly, I said the words I should have said earlier.
“I’m sorry.”
All four teenagers turned toward me.
“I blamed you because I couldn’t bear where else the pain belonged,” I admitted. “That wasn’t fair.”
The dark-haired boy shook his head gently.
“You lost your daughter.”
“And you lost your friend,” I replied.
The blonde girl hugged me first.
Awkward.
Sudden.
Completely sincere.
Then the others joined in until all of us stood there crying together for the same girl.
Benji barked once into the wind and ran back toward us, tail wagging wildly.
And for the first time since the funeral, I laughed.
A real laugh.
I still miss my daughter in ways words can’t explain.
But Benji sleeps outside my bedroom door again.
And sometimes Angie’s friends come over for dinner, or to walk him, or simply because grief feels lighter when shared.
They tell me stories about her.
How she once forced them to return a stray shopping cart because “someone has to.”
How she spent nearly an hour rescuing a frightened kitten from under a car.
How she talked about me constantly.
That last part still breaks me every single time.
Angie never came home.
But somehow, she still found a way to leave something warm, living, and loving behind.
And some nights, when Benji rests his head in my lap while those kids laugh in my kitchen the same way Angie once did, it almost feels like my daughter is still there beside me.
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