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That afternoon by the pool, Lena adjusted her sun hat and looked me over from head to toe.
My face burned. Across the deck, Richard slowly walked over and placed a glass of cold water on the small table beside my lounger. He did not say a word. He simply left it there, condensation already sliding down the side.
On day three, Lena rearranged the toiletries in our bathroom while we were at lunch.
On the fourth night, just after Ethan and I had crawled back under the covers, there was a soft knock at the door. I opened it in my robe, and Lena swept past me straight to the armchair beside our bed.
“Don’t mind me. I’ll just stay until my son falls asleep.”
“A mother doesn’t watch a clock, Avery.”
I sat on the edge of the mattress for forty minutes while she scrolled through her phone in our bedroom.
I knew who had left it.
I found Richard there before lunch, sitting with his hands folded, staring out at the hedges as if he had been waiting for a long time.
“You knew I would.”
He gestured to the bench beside him. I sat.
“The chocolate.”
“At the rehearsal dinner. You ordered the flourless cake when everyone else took the lemon tart. You closed your eyes on the first bite.” Richard almost smiled. “A father notices what a son forgets to.”
I looked down at my hands.
“Ethan used to mention it too, years back,” he added. “Said his girl had a sweet tooth. He stopped mentioning things like that around the time his mother started calling every night.”
“Richard—”
“You don’t have to say anything, Avery. I just wanted you to know I’ve been paying attention.”
He stood, brushed off his trousers, and left before I could find a reply.
That night at dinner, Lena rested her hand on Ethan’s shoulder as though reminding the room who he belonged to.
“A mother knows what her boy needs better than a wife ever will.”
“Lena,” I tried.
“Oh, sweetheart, don’t be sensitive.”
“I’m not being sensitive.”
“You see, Ethan? Your wife gets so worked up.”
Ethan stared into his wine glass.
“Just smile, Avery,” he muttered. “It’s almost over.”
I wanted to throw my napkin in his face. Instead, I excused myself to the bathroom and cried into a hand towel for ten minutes.
When I returned, a small plate of chocolate mousse was waiting at my seat. Richard did not look up from his menu.
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On day six, Lena changed our schedule.
“I booked us a massage. Ethan and me. You can have the spa to yourself, Avery, get a little color on those legs.”
“That’s our last full day, Lena.”
She turned to my husband. “And a mother and son deserve their time, don’t they, baby?”
Ethan kissed her cheek. “Of course, Mom!”
I walked out onto the balcony before I said something I would regret.
The ocean below looked impossibly calm. I gripped the railing until my knuckles hurt, counting every insult I had swallowed over six days. Six days of smiling. Six days of being made smaller at every meal.
I thought about my mother, who had told me on my wedding morning that a good wife keeps the peace. I thought about my grandmother, who died with so many unsaid words in her mouth.
“Tomorrow,” I whispered to the dark water. “Tomorrow I will speak.”
Behind me, the sliding door creaked.
I turned, expecting Ethan. It was Richard. He did not step outside. He only looked at me through the glass and gave the smallest nod I had ever seen a man give.
Day seven arrived with a quiet I did not trust. I sat on a stone bench near the resort garden, the same place Richard had circled on that folded map, trying to gather the words I had swallowed all week.
I heard his footsteps before I saw him.
“May I?” Richard asked, gesturing toward the bench.
I nodded.
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