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“And I get to decide who I am now.”
I drove home in a silence that felt different from any silence I had known since Daniel died. Not the hollow, crushing silence of absence. Something with more substance to it.
For weeks the grief had felt like something being taken from me continuously, piece by piece, until I was not sure what would be left when it finished.
Not peace. Not resolution. Those things were a long distance away still.
But something had shifted from being taken to being placed.
And for the first time since Daniel died, the weight of it felt less like the end of something and more like the beginning of a question I was going to have to answer with whatever I had left.
That was not nothing.
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