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“Well, you weren’t using it,” she said, inspecting her nails like we were discussing throw pillows. “And honestly, those wheels are going to destroy the hardwood.”
“Ethan!” he shouted, his whole face lighting up with a kind of love adults often lose the ability to feel cleanly. He started for me, but Dad caught him by the back of the shirt and yanked him hard enough to make the kid stumble.
“He can stay with me!” Leo yelled, fighting against his grip. “I have a bunk bed! He can take the top!”
“Then he can have the bottom!” Leo shouted, tears already gathering. “I’ll sleep on the floor! Please, Dad!”
“Enough!” My father slammed his hand against the doorframe. The glass rattled. “You’re embarrassing us. Get off the porch, Ethan. Go to the motel on Route 9. We’ll talk next week. Maybe.”
He looked at me once more, not with regret, not even with real anger—just the expression of a man annoyed that a problem had shown up in person. Then he shut the door.
I sat there in the rain for a few seconds after he closed it. Water ran down the back of my neck and soaked the collar of my uniform. I looked at the door I had sanded and repainted for him three summers earlier. I looked at the flowerbeds I had paid to have professionally landscaped because Mom once said she missed having something pretty to look at when Dad came home drunk and loud. I looked down at the folded bank letter in the inside pocket of my jacket—the surprise I had carried all the way home from Germany. I had planned to put it on the dinner table that night and say the mortgage was gone, that the house was theirs free and clear, that Frank Miller could finally retire from blaming the world for the life he built badly.
I turned the chair around and rolled back down the driveway. The wheels hissed on wet concrete. By the time I got into the taxi, the driver had the kind of careful pity on his face people save for funerals and hospitals.
“Where to, soldier?” he asked quietly.
Then I pulled out my phone and added, “And pass me that phone book up front, would you? I need the number for the foreclosure department at First National.”
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